You Must Be So Tired…
You must be so tired, love.
A lifetime is a long time to try to work to prove your worth. You should have never felt like that was necessary for safety, for love, for acceptance. I know you’re hardwired for hard work as a result, and nothing ever seems quite good enough. I know. I get it. It makes sense. But you don’t have to live like that, okay? Right now, if you must work hard, maybe you can work hard on rest, on being kind to yourself, and on leaning into the actual longings and desires of your own soul. Did you know that they’re there for a reason? You were made the way you were made intentionally. And you are glorious. I hope you will see that, too, sooner rather than later.
May this be a small moment of attunement for you, a moment where you feel seen, feel that feeling of someone looking you in the eye and letting you know that you are precious and unconditionally loved. Do you remember ever feeling that way? Do you remember the warmth that engulfed your chest? Do you remember feeling like you were totally safe because you were totally seen and totally you and still just totally LOVED? Grab hold of that feeling. Internalize it right now. Because it’s all true - it doesn’t matter if you’re sick in bed or sitting on the floor crying or out in the world absolutely crushing your job - in all of those spaces you are priceless and worthy of love.
Ok? I hope you can sense that now for this moment and that in your heart of hearts you can know that you don’t have to perform to survive. You can be you. It is perfectly, wonderfully, beautifully enough to be you.
Sending you gentle hugs and so much compassion. You matter. 💛